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Humble Prayer Warrior
There is power in prayer (James 5:16)!
It is 2:06 AM and I just woke up. I’m usually at my lowest when I wake up; it’s because of the dreams.
My wife left me in August 2022. It’s one thing for a girlfriend to leave you or an old friend, but it’s another thing when your wife leaves you.
I love my wife deeply. I really did. I’m not saying I was perfect, but I loved her. One thing I’ve learned in the last few years is that love is a choice. We choose to love someone or something despite their imperfections, love is a choice.
My job in Alaska was complete in August 2022. My wife and daughter were leaving to visit family overseas in mid September. My sons and I were headed to Texas to set up our new home and start my new job as a teacher.
After I left Alaska, life was very difficult due to finances. My sons and I struggled waiting for our first teacher check. The first teacher check arrived around September 20, 2022. It also included a moving allowance. We all had waited all this time for this money to come in so that we can breathe. There were also so much needed purchases that we need to make for school in life even though my boys were very young, they understood the need for that money.
The day that I got paid was a very exciting day. I woke up early and checked the bank account and there it was it was one paycheck and the moving allowance, a sizable amount of money for a preacher and a teacher. I was excited for the day. At the time, little did I know it would be the last day I saw my children.
Early in the morning, my wife and a sister in Christ took my sons from school. I have not seen them since every day, I live with a deep deep pain, deep in the recesses of my heart.
My wife had gone to court with an attorney after I left Alaska and convinced the judge that I had stolen the sons and taking them across state lines. It was all alive. My wife had two tickets that she probably spent over $2000 maybe 3000 to go overseas. The church where I worked at even asked us to leave the house by August 1 she knew all that she also knew I had a new job that was starting. She also knew I was going to see my dad for the first time since my mom passed in 2019. She knew all that.
I need strength.
I’m a sentimental type of guy. Today is Valentine’s Day. I remember when Valentine’s Day. I had gone to the store and I bought little candies and little things for each kid and for my wife. So, when they woke up and went up to the kitchen area, they’re on the kitchen counter counters were a little Valentine’s Day memorial for each kid and for my wife. I wanted them all to know that I love them with all my heart and I did.
God brought me back to Alaska in August 2024. I had prayed for some time that he would do that. I had hoped that being closer to my family would lead to reconciliation. In Texas, I was 5000 miles away.
I’ve been back to Alaska now for over 18 months. It has been an incredible struggle. I feel like Job. I moved here with no place to live in no car to drive. I had a teaching job and a coaching job. I remember walking to school in the rain because I had no car.
I lived in the shelter for 4.5 months. I then moved into a nice apartment in a $1 million house for five months. I then lived in my van for 28 nights. I then lived in a primitive basement with no toilet for 4.5 months after that, I’ve been living in a studio apartment. On March 5, I have to move out or pay $1500 for another month.
I have living in Alaska now all this time, like 1819 months and I’ve not paid rent one time. I have not personally paid any money. I’ve either lived for free or the VA paid for my apartment. Looking back, I can see the hand of God as he put me in a position that required me to be in the VA program, which I’ve never heard it before which ended up paying for nine months of rent. Thank you God for your provision.
I moved here to be a teacher; however, on November 20 I lost my job as a teacher due to no fault of my own. Thankfully, God had prepared the way I had been doing gig work off and own and so I knew how to do it and I started doing it.
In an early May 2025, I moved out of my apartment and in two of the back of my van it’s Alaska so it was still cold night down into the 30s. I was freezing. I had made blankets on top of me. I finally got a job. It’s a laboratory manager. It was a highest salary out I’ve ever received. However, three weeks later the job ended and they had no more use for me. They were so disheartening.
I’ve had so many ups and downs. I feel like down the road. They’re gonna write a a Bible book about me similar to Job. I have suffered so much over the last 18 months since I arrived in Alaska.
The weird thing about all the suffering that I’ve endured is that I feel like my love for God is more that it’s ever been. I feel like my faith in God is stronger than it’s ever been. Almost every day, I tell God how much I love him many times throughout the day like he’s sitting there next to me. I truly do love God I really do.
I have asked for many prayers. And it seems like almost every time I’m accused of not being a Christian. Yes, I am a Christian. I was baptized in the Christ on July 5, 1979. I’ve been a Christian a long time. So please do not conclude that. I’m not a Christian for whatever reason.
I love prayer!
I appreciate each and every prayer on my behalf. Some may be reading this prayer request and thinking I’ve heard that story before. I always feel like I need to recap what’s happened because some may not have read previous prayer request. Thank you for praying for me.
Depression and sadness
I know God keeps our tears in the bottle which I believe refers to his intimacy towards us in the midst of our trials. As we walked to the valley of the shadow of death, he is right there with us I believe that.
I suffer with deep sadness because I miss my children. I see little kids in town and I think about my sons. I’m very sentimental about birthdays, anniversaries, and those days which are deemed very special in our society. Everyone is very difficult on me. I mean very difficult.
I moved to Alaska walking by faith and up to my sight. I was so convinced that before my plane landed my wife would contact me and offer me a place to live in a vehicle to drive. I was 99.9% convinced so, my plane landed at 12:15 AM and I had nowhere to go.
God made provision.
Today is February 14. I have not worked a real job since June 16, 2025 yet, I have made it by the grace of God. I did gig work and made good money even a full salary.
It’s like every time something good is in my life, something bad follows. I was doing really good with gig work and then my car has stopped working. So, I rented a car from November until we can go. The price prices went up to $100 a day I could not afford it anymore.
I have not done any gig work in the last week yet God has made provision.
I started a small business. I made money. A few days ago I lost a lot of money. However yesterday, I made all of it back. Thank you, God.
I feel like my back is up against the wall. On March 5, I need to move out of here. Where will I go? I don’t know. I have no job if a company called me today in Maine and offered me a decent position. I would leave immediately that’s how badly I need a job.
If a company in Hawaii contacted me today and offer me a position delivering appliances outside Honolulu, I would leave them immediately. I need a job.
I am so convinced God is going to make provision. I don’t know how he’s gonna do it and I don’t know what he’s gonna do but I do know this. God sees us as we are. He knows our condition he knows what we have tried to do and our efforts.
I believe at all times there is an opportunity right in front of us. It may be the only thing that we can do until God opens up another door. I am praying for that door.
The only option I have on March 5 is to go back to my dad’s house in Texas. So, as it stands right this moment that’s what I plan on doing on March 5 are slightly before I want to utilize this free apartment until then.
I need help God I need to open door. God please open the door for me so why that I cannot shut it
Thank you for your prayers.
I love my wife with all my heart. She did some really bad things to me. You don’t do those things to people you love. I still love her, and I stand prepared to forgive her. I pray for reconciliation.
I love my children and I miss them deeply. I think I cry every day as I think about them I pray that God will bring my family back together as one.
I need a job. Gig work is a great way to make money but without a dependable vehicle it’s harder. I need something more consistent God, please make provision for me.
Thank you for praying for me
I really appreciate all your prayers. I know there’s power in prayer. I know God has the ability to move mountains and crushed them to the ground. I know God has a way of opening doors. I’ve seen it in the past and I trust it for the future.
It is 2:06 AM and I just woke up. I’m usually at my lowest when I wake up; it’s because of the dreams.
My wife left me in August 2022. It’s one thing for a girlfriend to leave you or an old friend, but it’s another thing when your wife leaves you.
I love my wife deeply. I really did. I’m not saying I was perfect, but I loved her. One thing I’ve learned in the last few years is that love is a choice. We choose to love someone or something despite their imperfections, love is a choice.
My job in Alaska was complete in August 2022. My wife and daughter were leaving to visit family overseas in mid September. My sons and I were headed to Texas to set up our new home and start my new job as a teacher.
After I left Alaska, life was very difficult due to finances. My sons and I struggled waiting for our first teacher check. The first teacher check arrived around September 20, 2022. It also included a moving allowance. We all had waited all this time for this money to come in so that we can breathe. There were also so much needed purchases that we need to make for school in life even though my boys were very young, they understood the need for that money.
The day that I got paid was a very exciting day. I woke up early and checked the bank account and there it was it was one paycheck and the moving allowance, a sizable amount of money for a preacher and a teacher. I was excited for the day. At the time, little did I know it would be the last day I saw my children.
Early in the morning, my wife and a sister in Christ took my sons from school. I have not seen them since every day, I live with a deep deep pain, deep in the recesses of my heart.
My wife had gone to court with an attorney after I left Alaska and convinced the judge that I had stolen the sons and taking them across state lines. It was all alive. My wife had two tickets that she probably spent over $2000 maybe 3000 to go overseas. The church where I worked at even asked us to leave the house by August 1 she knew all that she also knew I had a new job that was starting. She also knew I was going to see my dad for the first time since my mom passed in 2019. She knew all that.
I need strength.
I’m a sentimental type of guy. Today is Valentine’s Day. I remember when Valentine’s Day. I had gone to the store and I bought little candies and little things for each kid and for my wife. So, when they woke up and went up to the kitchen area, they’re on the kitchen counter counters were a little Valentine’s Day memorial for each kid and for my wife. I wanted them all to know that I love them with all my heart and I did.
God brought me back to Alaska in August 2024. I had prayed for some time that he would do that. I had hoped that being closer to my family would lead to reconciliation. In Texas, I was 5000 miles away.
I’ve been back to Alaska now for over 18 months. It has been an incredible struggle. I feel like Job. I moved here with no place to live in no car to drive. I had a teaching job and a coaching job. I remember walking to school in the rain because I had no car.
I lived in the shelter for 4.5 months. I then moved into a nice apartment in a $1 million house for five months. I then lived in my van for 28 nights. I then lived in a primitive basement with no toilet for 4.5 months after that, I’ve been living in a studio apartment. On March 5, I have to move out or pay $1500 for another month.
I have living in Alaska now all this time, like 1819 months and I’ve not paid rent one time. I have not personally paid any money. I’ve either lived for free or the VA paid for my apartment. Looking back, I can see the hand of God as he put me in a position that required me to be in the VA program, which I’ve never heard it before which ended up paying for nine months of rent. Thank you God for your provision.
I moved here to be a teacher; however, on November 20 I lost my job as a teacher due to no fault of my own. Thankfully, God had prepared the way I had been doing gig work off and own and so I knew how to do it and I started doing it.
In an early May 2025, I moved out of my apartment and in two of the back of my van it’s Alaska so it was still cold night down into the 30s. I was freezing. I had made blankets on top of me. I finally got a job. It’s a laboratory manager. It was a highest salary out I’ve ever received. However, three weeks later the job ended and they had no more use for me. They were so disheartening.
I’ve had so many ups and downs. I feel like down the road. They’re gonna write a a Bible book about me similar to Job. I have suffered so much over the last 18 months since I arrived in Alaska.
The weird thing about all the suffering that I’ve endured is that I feel like my love for God is more that it’s ever been. I feel like my faith in God is stronger than it’s ever been. Almost every day, I tell God how much I love him many times throughout the day like he’s sitting there next to me. I truly do love God I really do.
I have asked for many prayers. And it seems like almost every time I’m accused of not being a Christian. Yes, I am a Christian. I was baptized in the Christ on July 5, 1979. I’ve been a Christian a long time. So please do not conclude that. I’m not a Christian for whatever reason.
I love prayer!
I appreciate each and every prayer on my behalf. Some may be reading this prayer request and thinking I’ve heard that story before. I always feel like I need to recap what’s happened because some may not have read previous prayer request. Thank you for praying for me.
Depression and sadness
I know God keeps our tears in the bottle which I believe refers to his intimacy towards us in the midst of our trials. As we walked to the valley of the shadow of death, he is right there with us I believe that.
I suffer with deep sadness because I miss my children. I see little kids in town and I think about my sons. I’m very sentimental about birthdays, anniversaries, and those days which are deemed very special in our society. Everyone is very difficult on me. I mean very difficult.
I moved to Alaska walking by faith and up to my sight. I was so convinced that before my plane landed my wife would contact me and offer me a place to live in a vehicle to drive. I was 99.9% convinced so, my plane landed at 12:15 AM and I had nowhere to go.
God made provision.
Today is February 14. I have not worked a real job since June 16, 2025 yet, I have made it by the grace of God. I did gig work and made good money even a full salary.
It’s like every time something good is in my life, something bad follows. I was doing really good with gig work and then my car has stopped working. So, I rented a car from November until we can go. The price prices went up to $100 a day I could not afford it anymore.
I have not done any gig work in the last week yet God has made provision.
I started a small business. I made money. A few days ago I lost a lot of money. However yesterday, I made all of it back. Thank you, God.
I feel like my back is up against the wall. On March 5, I need to move out of here. Where will I go? I don’t know. I have no job if a company called me today in Maine and offered me a decent position. I would leave immediately that’s how badly I need a job.
If a company in Hawaii contacted me today and offer me a position delivering appliances outside Honolulu, I would leave them immediately. I need a job.
I am so convinced God is going to make provision. I don’t know how he’s gonna do it and I don’t know what he’s gonna do but I do know this. God sees us as we are. He knows our condition he knows what we have tried to do and our efforts.
I believe at all times there is an opportunity right in front of us. It may be the only thing that we can do until God opens up another door. I am praying for that door.
The only option I have on March 5 is to go back to my dad’s house in Texas. So, as it stands right this moment that’s what I plan on doing on March 5 are slightly before I want to utilize this free apartment until then.
I need help God I need to open door. God please open the door for me so why that I cannot shut it
Thank you for your prayers.
I love my wife with all my heart. She did some really bad things to me. You don’t do those things to people you love. I still love her, and I stand prepared to forgive her. I pray for reconciliation.
I love my children and I miss them deeply. I think I cry every day as I think about them I pray that God will bring my family back together as one.
I need a job. Gig work is a great way to make money but without a dependable vehicle it’s harder. I need something more consistent God, please make provision for me.
Thank you for praying for me
I really appreciate all your prayers. I know there’s power in prayer. I know God has the ability to move mountains and crushed them to the ground. I know God has a way of opening doors. I’ve seen it in the past and I trust it for the future.
