Justbecause5
Prayer Warrior
It’s hard to believe I have almost been in the primitive apartment for one week.
The primitive apartment is not great, but it’s a lot better than living in the van with mosquitoes (28 nights). Thank you, God!
It is 1:20 PM. I’ve had a rough morning. I just get easily depressed. Every Sunday, I just hope and pray that my wife would hear a sermon or class that would bring her to repentance. Honestly, I don’t know how she lives with herself having done these horrible things to me.
It’s painful when someone leaves you. Marriage is supposed to be for life. Marriage is two people constantly working on themselves to make the marriage better and more pleasing to God.
Also, it’s painful to lose a job, especially when you thought that job was an answer to prayer. I work hard and I show up on time, etc. so it’s extra painful. When you know you did nothing wrong. In fact you did many things right. I had hired three wonderful people and brought them to the company. I had done many other things that were positive and fruitful.
I believe in Satan. Satan is real. Satan is destructive and would love to harm the most … those who love Christ the most. When I first became a minister, I don’t know that I calculated that properly. Satan would love to destroy a minister or an elder in the church, etc.. if he can just silence the voice of the gospel being preached.
I really wish that those on this thread would quit commenting on mentioning Jesus or not mentioning Jesus. Obviously, I believe in Jesus or I wouldn’t be asking for prayers. I feel like I need to mention something about Jesus to avoid those remarks.
It’s painful to live this life. It looks like so many people out in the world are having their best life, meanwhile, I’m in the primitive apartment all alone.
My life was upside down involving my wife and family, but my new job gave me a reason to get up every day. It gave me hope of a good paycheck and a future that often necessitates a good paycheck. Now, I feel utterly hopeless. God, please hear my voice.
I feel like Job. Everything he had was taken from him. He basically pleaded that God would take his life. I have done that many times. I have asked God to just kill me, strike me dead. I’m not suicidal, but I do want to be with the Lord forever.
In the end, God blessed Job. I have often prayed that God would bless the latter end of James more than his beginning… just like Job. I still pray that prayer from time and time.
Did you know that 80% of divorces are initiated by women. 90% if there’s a college degree. Women in this country have become so ungodly and hateful and mean and vindictive. Divorced women often encourage other women in marriages to divorce. Their husbands too. Misery loves company!
When we think about how ungodly this country has become, we usually think about homosexuality, pornography, and drugs, etc., but rarely do we think of the ungodly efforts to break up marriages in this country. As we all know, marriage is supposed to be for life. Women even mock their vows that they made where they promised to love the other…
One must the men and women from past generations that kept their marriages together through wars and depressions and extremely difficult times… I suspect there were many times they contemplated divorce, but did not.
I need prayers!
I emailed three congregations. Shortly after I took the manager position, the church in New Mexico wanted to fly me down there to look at the position. I prayed fervently about it, but said no because I just taken this manager job. The work in New Mexico was not offered to me so I could not jeopardize my current position.
I contacted a church in Maine, New Mexico and one here in Alaska. I have now heard back from all three. The one in Alaska just hired somebody last week. The one in New Mexico is interviewing several people.
I remember when I first got this job. I praise God all day long thanking him for moving the mountain of unemployment in my life. Now, I have my doubts. It appears he did not move the mountain and it’s still there. I still trust him, but it’s deflating when you think a mountain has been moved, but it’s actually not been moved.
I’ll do DoorDash later today. Last night I went out and made $29 in one hour. Last year, I averaged $32 an hour, but it seemed like the offers were bigger and more often. Sunday night, in the past, it was always good. I think up here it helps when there is snow and ice on the ground and it’s -20° outside. People don’t want to get out and so they order so I wanna bring food to them.
My faith is strong though I do get weak. I’m tired of living in limbo. I’m tired of being sad. I’m tired of feeling hopeless.
God, please help me get back on my feet. Please help me to stand tall again!!
Before I took the manager job, Tesla had contacted me about working for them for three months with the possibility of a full-time position. I haven’t heard back from them. If they offer me the job today, I would take it immediately.
God knows my heart. I’m eager to work. I want to have stability in my life. I guess Satan is the author of chaos and confusion. God, please step in and defeat Satan in my life please send the angel of the Lord or angels or whatever to encamp around me to help me.
I’ve often said if the church in Maine contacted me and offered to bring me out there to teach and preach I would I would go. God knows my heart. He also knows my needs. I can’t go for free. I wish I could, but I can’t I want to serve God, but I’ve got to take care of myself in my future.
I pray every day that God will bring my wife back to me. But unlike God, I do not know the end from the beginning (Ps 90:1-2). I’m tired of being lonely and sad… I want a wife God please bring my wife back to me.
I love the psalms. I read the psalms every month, that is my goal. I am almost done for June and I’ve been reading a lot the last few days. I’ve been praying the psalms which has helped me tremendously. Sometimes I get so tired I have to get in bed and sleep. I just looked at my eyes in the mirror and I have dark circles in my eyes. I look terrible.
I can write a book about all this… Maybe I will and maybe it will bless someone out there who is going through dark days.
Please pray for me
The primitive apartment is not great, but it’s a lot better than living in the van with mosquitoes (28 nights). Thank you, God!
It is 1:20 PM. I’ve had a rough morning. I just get easily depressed. Every Sunday, I just hope and pray that my wife would hear a sermon or class that would bring her to repentance. Honestly, I don’t know how she lives with herself having done these horrible things to me.
It’s painful when someone leaves you. Marriage is supposed to be for life. Marriage is two people constantly working on themselves to make the marriage better and more pleasing to God.
Also, it’s painful to lose a job, especially when you thought that job was an answer to prayer. I work hard and I show up on time, etc. so it’s extra painful. When you know you did nothing wrong. In fact you did many things right. I had hired three wonderful people and brought them to the company. I had done many other things that were positive and fruitful.
I believe in Satan. Satan is real. Satan is destructive and would love to harm the most … those who love Christ the most. When I first became a minister, I don’t know that I calculated that properly. Satan would love to destroy a minister or an elder in the church, etc.. if he can just silence the voice of the gospel being preached.
I really wish that those on this thread would quit commenting on mentioning Jesus or not mentioning Jesus. Obviously, I believe in Jesus or I wouldn’t be asking for prayers. I feel like I need to mention something about Jesus to avoid those remarks.
It’s painful to live this life. It looks like so many people out in the world are having their best life, meanwhile, I’m in the primitive apartment all alone.
My life was upside down involving my wife and family, but my new job gave me a reason to get up every day. It gave me hope of a good paycheck and a future that often necessitates a good paycheck. Now, I feel utterly hopeless. God, please hear my voice.
I feel like Job. Everything he had was taken from him. He basically pleaded that God would take his life. I have done that many times. I have asked God to just kill me, strike me dead. I’m not suicidal, but I do want to be with the Lord forever.
In the end, God blessed Job. I have often prayed that God would bless the latter end of James more than his beginning… just like Job. I still pray that prayer from time and time.
Did you know that 80% of divorces are initiated by women. 90% if there’s a college degree. Women in this country have become so ungodly and hateful and mean and vindictive. Divorced women often encourage other women in marriages to divorce. Their husbands too. Misery loves company!
When we think about how ungodly this country has become, we usually think about homosexuality, pornography, and drugs, etc., but rarely do we think of the ungodly efforts to break up marriages in this country. As we all know, marriage is supposed to be for life. Women even mock their vows that they made where they promised to love the other…
One must the men and women from past generations that kept their marriages together through wars and depressions and extremely difficult times… I suspect there were many times they contemplated divorce, but did not.
I need prayers!
I emailed three congregations. Shortly after I took the manager position, the church in New Mexico wanted to fly me down there to look at the position. I prayed fervently about it, but said no because I just taken this manager job. The work in New Mexico was not offered to me so I could not jeopardize my current position.
I contacted a church in Maine, New Mexico and one here in Alaska. I have now heard back from all three. The one in Alaska just hired somebody last week. The one in New Mexico is interviewing several people.
I remember when I first got this job. I praise God all day long thanking him for moving the mountain of unemployment in my life. Now, I have my doubts. It appears he did not move the mountain and it’s still there. I still trust him, but it’s deflating when you think a mountain has been moved, but it’s actually not been moved.
I’ll do DoorDash later today. Last night I went out and made $29 in one hour. Last year, I averaged $32 an hour, but it seemed like the offers were bigger and more often. Sunday night, in the past, it was always good. I think up here it helps when there is snow and ice on the ground and it’s -20° outside. People don’t want to get out and so they order so I wanna bring food to them.
My faith is strong though I do get weak. I’m tired of living in limbo. I’m tired of being sad. I’m tired of feeling hopeless.
God, please help me get back on my feet. Please help me to stand tall again!!
Before I took the manager job, Tesla had contacted me about working for them for three months with the possibility of a full-time position. I haven’t heard back from them. If they offer me the job today, I would take it immediately.
God knows my heart. I’m eager to work. I want to have stability in my life. I guess Satan is the author of chaos and confusion. God, please step in and defeat Satan in my life please send the angel of the Lord or angels or whatever to encamp around me to help me.
I’ve often said if the church in Maine contacted me and offered to bring me out there to teach and preach I would I would go. God knows my heart. He also knows my needs. I can’t go for free. I wish I could, but I can’t I want to serve God, but I’ve got to take care of myself in my future.
I pray every day that God will bring my wife back to me. But unlike God, I do not know the end from the beginning (Ps 90:1-2). I’m tired of being lonely and sad… I want a wife God please bring my wife back to me.
I love the psalms. I read the psalms every month, that is my goal. I am almost done for June and I’ve been reading a lot the last few days. I’ve been praying the psalms which has helped me tremendously. Sometimes I get so tired I have to get in bed and sleep. I just looked at my eyes in the mirror and I have dark circles in my eyes. I look terrible.
I can write a book about all this… Maybe I will and maybe it will bless someone out there who is going through dark days.
Please pray for me
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
