Valeyroerroth
Disciple of Prayer
I need deliverance from addiction to fentanyl. As well, some where to live and help with finances. I lost my husband of 41 years last July and immediately following, lost my home, everything I owned and then my car's engine blew up. I presently live with a very unkind person, but it's either this or the streets. I'm going to try to move to Staten Island, with a sister, who's has a very long past of being some crazy and just a lot of drama. Im very nervous, but I don't know what else I can do. I'm desperate at this point and I can barely get through a day sometimes. So depressed. . My addiction gives me such overwhelming shame and I feel awful that I am not able to stop on my own. I have constant fear inside me and I try to read the Bible every day but find I fall asleep a lot when I open it. I have begged and pleaded for God to deliver me from this horrible addiction and as well find me a home. I might have asked you to pray for this before but I'm still in the same situation. I hate myself for doing these drugs I hate myself for it. I'm so ashamed. I'm in survival mode and that's the way I've been for a really long time. I really can't remember happy moment. I completely isolated myself because of my life and I have nothing or no one and I'm just isolated cuz I don't even know what I would say to anyone, given how my life is right now. I don't even recognize it. Please pray that I'm delivered from this addiction that God gives me a place that I can call home and that he would help me with my finances so I can live comfortably. I get disability due to back surgeries. Degenerative disc disease. It's gotten bad, with right leg giving me a lot of pain and swelling. It's so difficult to get around and I've gained so much weight. Can't move a lot. It makes it worse, the weight gain. So hard to walk far or do anything. I get $800/monthly to live ,which isn't possible to live on. It's unrealistic. I feel so overwhelmed with everything. I get paralyzed with fear. So there's many things in this prayer request and I apologize if it's overwhelming for you. Believe me, I live it everyday and I'm overwhelmed all the time. In a nutshell deliverance from addiction, finances and a home and what God needs me to do for him what he would like me to accomplish to further his kingdom. I'm eager and want to be a better daughter to him, a better person and I can't wait to get rid of the shame I carry with me. I feel very alone, just empty. I thank you so much in advance, for your prayers and God bless you all.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, and Your righteousness. Help and strengthen me God to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.