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Psalm138
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Dear prayer warriors
I can not go on this way...I don`t have the power to pray anymore.....there are only tears and great pain.
Last week I dreamed that Stefan had died.
for a long long time I prayed that Stefan will pull himself out from two singel purses on which he was registered. He never pulled himself out although we had beenalready together.
In the time between the 3rd August till the 14th of August he was everyday active in this single purses.
I had pain in my heart like if there would be a sword.
I wrote Stefan to forgive me that I had been jealous and asked him for reconsilation. I was jealous, but not without reason. That was the only reason which caused differences between us, although I never shouted loud or made reproaches to him, I always suffered still with many tears, and showed him my love.
After that letter which he received on the16th of August, he answered me in one short sentences, that once more he demains to me to not contact him anylonger in any way, not because he is angry against me any longer , but because he wants to live alone.
After his letter (which really was only that short message), he pulled himself out of the single-purses.
Therefore I thank the lord, so much and I give glory to Jesus.
But then I dreamed that Stefan died. Someone told me in this dream, , that he died...I was so lost and sad and visited the confliction. Every detail was so clear in my dream I also saw his coffin. I woke up and cried.
Today I understand that he has chosen to live a live without love...it is like to be dead. I cannot reach him, he cannot realise how much Jesus and I love him.
My dear brother please there is so much pain in my soul, I have lost all power to pray...in the same way I have lost my father,( he also did much adultry, had an terrible accident in which the lord gave him a warning. But my father dit not repent and 5 years later he died, only 42 years old,. I have been only 7 years old when this happened. Stafan always remembered me to my father in every case.
Often I wept so many tears in fear of loosing Stefan while we had been together. After Stefan left me in November 2009 , after the affliction from his mother (The best friend of his mother, a woman tested me to become jealous, that was the reason for this sepperation ( she didn`t agree to marry me, although I loved her, because she herself had problems with Stefan)
After Stefan had left me in November 2009 , four weeks later he had an terrible accident. He was brought to hospital and needed to be operated for 6 hours. In January I visited him, the lord encouraged me to, whith the word:
" Did`t I say unto you, if you only will believe, you would see my glory?
After ringing the bell at Stefans door, and after he opened and saw me, quickly he closed the door and didn`t let me in. He made a lot of reproaches. After that, he didn`t answere any letter I ever wrote him, although I always wrote him good words of love and encouagement..
Therefore I have no power at all. I`am also sick because of that great pain in my soul that my body can`t stand it any longer and I have to work.so much. Please understand me. Please lift up for me my arms like they did with Mose. With all of my heart I don`t want Stefan to die. PLEASE PRAY FOR HIM ! That he will find the way to live.
Please pray also for me, that the lord Jesus will give me clearity, what this dream means, what I can do and that the lord will release me from any curse, also Stefan und release our lives.
I thank you for your attention and your prayers are precous for Stefan and me.
THE LORD MAY BLESS YOU AND MAY TAKE CARE OF ALL OF YOUR NEEDS!
With love,
Raffaela
I can not go on this way...I don`t have the power to pray anymore.....there are only tears and great pain.
Last week I dreamed that Stefan had died.
for a long long time I prayed that Stefan will pull himself out from two singel purses on which he was registered. He never pulled himself out although we had beenalready together.
In the time between the 3rd August till the 14th of August he was everyday active in this single purses.
I had pain in my heart like if there would be a sword.
I wrote Stefan to forgive me that I had been jealous and asked him for reconsilation. I was jealous, but not without reason. That was the only reason which caused differences between us, although I never shouted loud or made reproaches to him, I always suffered still with many tears, and showed him my love.
After that letter which he received on the16th of August, he answered me in one short sentences, that once more he demains to me to not contact him anylonger in any way, not because he is angry against me any longer , but because he wants to live alone.
After his letter (which really was only that short message), he pulled himself out of the single-purses.
Therefore I thank the lord, so much and I give glory to Jesus.
But then I dreamed that Stefan died. Someone told me in this dream, , that he died...I was so lost and sad and visited the confliction. Every detail was so clear in my dream I also saw his coffin. I woke up and cried.
Today I understand that he has chosen to live a live without love...it is like to be dead. I cannot reach him, he cannot realise how much Jesus and I love him.
My dear brother please there is so much pain in my soul, I have lost all power to pray...in the same way I have lost my father,( he also did much adultry, had an terrible accident in which the lord gave him a warning. But my father dit not repent and 5 years later he died, only 42 years old,. I have been only 7 years old when this happened. Stafan always remembered me to my father in every case.
Often I wept so many tears in fear of loosing Stefan while we had been together. After Stefan left me in November 2009 , after the affliction from his mother (The best friend of his mother, a woman tested me to become jealous, that was the reason for this sepperation ( she didn`t agree to marry me, although I loved her, because she herself had problems with Stefan)
After Stefan had left me in November 2009 , four weeks later he had an terrible accident. He was brought to hospital and needed to be operated for 6 hours. In January I visited him, the lord encouraged me to, whith the word:
" Did`t I say unto you, if you only will believe, you would see my glory?
After ringing the bell at Stefans door, and after he opened and saw me, quickly he closed the door and didn`t let me in. He made a lot of reproaches. After that, he didn`t answere any letter I ever wrote him, although I always wrote him good words of love and encouagement..
Therefore I have no power at all. I`am also sick because of that great pain in my soul that my body can`t stand it any longer and I have to work.so much. Please understand me. Please lift up for me my arms like they did with Mose. With all of my heart I don`t want Stefan to die. PLEASE PRAY FOR HIM ! That he will find the way to live.
Please pray also for me, that the lord Jesus will give me clearity, what this dream means, what I can do and that the lord will release me from any curse, also Stefan und release our lives.
I thank you for your attention and your prayers are precous for Stefan and me.
THE LORD MAY BLESS YOU AND MAY TAKE CARE OF ALL OF YOUR NEEDS!
With love,
Raffaela
