Beloved brother, we hear the deep anguish and despair in your heart, and we are grieved to know you are suffering so profoundly. Yet we must speak truth in love, for your words reveal a spirit of hopelessness that does not come from God but from the enemy who seeks to destroy. The Lord declares in Jeremiah 29:11, *"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future."* Your life is precious to Him, and He has not abandoned you—even in this moment of overwhelming sorrow.
We must lovingly but firmly rebuke the thoughts of suicide that have taken root in your mind. Scripture is clear: *"Don’t you know that you are a temple of God, and that God’s Spirit lives in you? If anyone destroys God’s temple, God will destroy him; for God’s temple is holy, which you are"* (1 Corinthians 3:16-17). Your body is not your own—it was bought with the precious blood of Jesus Christ, and to harm it is to reject His sovereignty over your life. The pain you feel is real, but suicide is not the answer. It is a permanent "solution" to a temporary struggle, and it would leave your wife and children with a wound no earthly comfort could heal. You speak of protecting them, but brother, the greatest protection you can offer is to *live*—to fight for them, to seek God’s face, and to allow Him to restore you so you can lead your family in His strength.
You mention grief over your children, and we understand the weight of responsibility you feel. But listen to the words of Jesus: *"Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart; and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light"* (Matthew 11:28-30). You were never meant to carry this alone. The Lord is near to the brokenhearted (Psalm 34:18), and He longs to lift this burden from you if you will surrender it to Him.
We also notice that while you cry out to "God," you have not invoked the name of Jesus Christ, through whom *alone* we have access to the Father. There is no other name under heaven by which we must be saved (Acts 4:12). If you have not yet placed your faith in Jesus as your Lord and Savior, we urge you to do so now. Confess your sins, repent, and believe in Him—He is the only One who can give you true peace and eternal life. If you *have* trusted in Christ, then cling to Him now more than ever. Call upon *Jesus*, for He is your Advocate before the Father (1 John 2:1).
As for your wife and children, we will pray earnestly for their protection and provision. But we also pray that God would give *you* the strength to remain with them, to fight for their future, and to trust that He can redeem even this season of despair. The enemy wants to convince you that death is the only escape, but God offers *life*—abundant life (John 10:10). Will you choose to believe His promise over the lies of the devil?
Let us pray together for you now:
Heavenly Father, we lift this precious brother before Your throne of grace, where mercy is found in time of need. Lord, he is crushed in spirit, overwhelmed by sorrow, and tempted to give up. But You, O God, are his Refuge and Strength, a very present help in trouble (Psalm 46:1). We bind the spirit of suicide in the mighty name of Jesus and command it to flee from him. Fill him instead with Your Holy Spirit—with hope, with peace that surpasses understanding, and with the assurance that You have not forsaken him.
Lord, open his eyes to see that his life has purpose. Remind him that You have plans for him, for his wife, and for his children—plans for welfare and not for evil, to give them a future and a hope. Break the chains of despair and replace them with Your joy, which is his strength (Nehemiah 8:10). Surround him with Your angels, Lord, and send godly brothers and sisters in Christ to walk beside him in this valley. Give him the courage to seek help, whether through pastoral care, counseling, or medical support—whatever is needed to restore his mind and heart.
Father, we pray for his wife and children. Protect them, provide for them, and draw them close to You. But we also ask that You would use this trial to strengthen their family, not destroy it. Give this brother the will to live, to fight, and to trust You one more day—and then another, and another, until the storm passes and Your light breaks through.
If he has not yet surrendered his life to Jesus Christ, Lord, convict his heart now. Let today be the day of salvation for him (2 Corinthians 6:2). And if he is Your child, remind him that nothing—*nothing*—can separate him from Your love (Romans 8:38-39). Not even this.
We stand in the gap for him, Father, and we declare that the blood of Jesus covers him. Satan has no claim on his life. You, Lord, are his Shepherd, and You *will* lead him beside still waters and restore his soul (Psalm 23). We ask all this in the mighty, saving name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Redeemer. Amen.
Brother, we implore you: reach out to someone *today*. You are not meant to walk this path alone. Contact a pastor, a trusted believer, or a mental health professional. If you are in immediate danger, go to a hospital or call emergency services—this is not weakness, but wisdom. The body of Christ is here to bear your burdens with you (Galatians 6:2). And above all, cry out to *Jesus*. He is listening. He loves you. And He is not done with you yet.
*"The Lord is close to the brokenhearted.
He rescues those whose spirits are crushed."*
—Psalm 34:18 (WEB)