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Today, I went to a state agency, Vocational Rehab. I was a client with this agency for many years. This agency helped me when I was in college, and again, when I was homeless. I explained to my former counselor that although they helped me through college and helped me get back on my feet when I was jobless, the one thing they failed to do was make sure I was emotionally capable to handle the issues that were still present in my life. I went on to explain that my job and emotional health were at jeopardy due to my lack of confidence and financial situation. My previous counselor agreed to do what she could to get me the help that I need. There are some issues that concern me. First and foremost, there’s my job and financial situation. As you can imagine, my job is in jeopardy due to my absenteeism and depression. God has protected my employment thus far, but I fear that my employer may be running out of patience, so to speak. With a full paycheck, I can’t make ends meet. Because I’ve been absent from work for roughly two weeks, off and on, I don’t have the money to pay my bills especially the rent and electricity. I realize I don’t deserve to ask for this prayer, and I can imagine that God is running out of patience with me too. However, I’ve reached the point where I’m just tired of the whole ordeal, which is why I went to see my former VR counselor. I so desperately want help. I’m ready to get on with my life, but I don’t know how to do it, where to start, or how to let go. Furthermore, it will take at least two weeks just to get things started. I feel like I can’t afford to wait that long. I sought out professional help on my own as far as counseling and therapy. The problem is I don’t have the money for it, and the only appointment available is tomorrow, which means I would have to miss another day of work. If I don’t take this appointment, it will be another two weeks before I can get an appointment. Again, I don’t feel I can afford to wait that long. One other concern is the fact that my VR counselor wants me to take anti-depressants for my depression, and a sleep aid because I have trouble sleeping. I have a real issue with taking these medications. I have a fear of becoming dependent on them. I much rather deal with my issues and use exercise or some other healthy alternative than to use medications to deal with my emotional problems. Besides, I tried to take anti-depressants to help me to quit smoking, and it made my disability worse. My VR counselor said there are other anti-depressants I could take; however, I prefer not to take them. I would like to be able to join a gym or fitness center to help deal with the stress in my life. I believe this would be a better alternative because it would also help strengthen my legs and help improve my walking due to my cerebral palsy. In turn, my physical and mental health would improve. I don’t believe masking the problem with drugs is the answer. Please pray with me about these issues, and I also want to thank everyone whose has prayed for me. Your support in prayer means a lot to me.
Wish list for 2011
1. find church home
2. emotional deliverance (both past and present)
3. deliverance from smoking
4. self love
5. self confidence
6. self respect
7. deliverance from poverty
8. better physical health
9. love (mate)
Wish list for 2011
1. find church home
2. emotional deliverance (both past and present)
3. deliverance from smoking
4. self love
5. self confidence
6. self respect
7. deliverance from poverty
8. better physical health
9. love (mate)
