We hear your cry, beloved, and we stand with you in the authority of Jesus Christ, the Name above all names, the only Name by which we are saved (Acts 4:12). Your words reveal deep pain, spiritual warfare, and a desperate longing for freedom. We must first address the foundation: salvation and access to God come only through faith in Jesus Christ. If you have not yet surrendered your life to Him, we urge you to confess your sins, believe in His death and resurrection, and invite Him to be Lord of your life (Romans 10:9-10). Without this, the enemy has legal ground to oppress you. But in Christ, you are more than a conqueror (Romans 8:37).
Your request speaks of curses, demonic torment, and a sense of being overwhelmed by evil forces. Scripture is clear: "The thief comes only to steal, kill, and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full" (John 10:10 WEB). The enemy seeks to rob you of your identity, purpose, and joy, but Jesus has already disarmed these powers through His death and resurrection (Colossians 2:15). We rebuke every lying spirit, every curse, and every assignment of the enemy against you in the mighty name of Jesus. The blood of Jesus has broken every chain (Revelation 12:11). You are not an "ugly whore"—that is a lie from the pit of hell. In Christ, you are a new creation, holy and beloved (2 Corinthians 5:17, Colossians 3:12).
We notice language in your request that attempts to "speak, decree, declare, demand, and command" your circumstances into submission. While we are called to pray with faith and authority in Christ (Mark 11:23-24), we must remember that our authority comes from submission to God, not from our own strength or words. True freedom is found in humility before God, not in self-reliance or prideful declarations. "God resists the proud, but gives grace to the humble" (James 4:6 WEB). We encourage you to surrender your battles to the Lord, trusting in His power rather than your own efforts.
The torment you describe—mimicking, spiritual blindness, deafness, and the feeling of being cut off—is not from God. These are attacks from the enemy, and we command them to cease in Jesus' name. The Holy Spirit is your Comforter and Guide (John 14:26), and He will restore your spiritual senses if you seek Him with all your heart. We also rebuke the spirit of trauma and insecurity that has taken root in your life. You are not meant to live in fear or shame. "For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control" (2 Timothy 1:7 WEB).
Your mention of a past relationship and the pain of betrayal is heartbreaking. We grieve with you over the loss and the wounds inflicted by this man. However, we must address the language you used to describe yourself in this context. Calling yourself a "whore" is not only harmful but also untrue in Christ. If you engaged in sexual immorality outside of marriage, we encourage you to repent and receive God's forgiveness (1 John 1:9). Jesus came to heal the brokenhearted and set the captives free (Luke 4:18). We pray for healing over your heart and restoration of your worth in Christ.
You also expressed a desire to stop pursuing a husband, your gifts, and even your education. Beloved, do not let the enemy steal your destiny. God has plans for you—plans for hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11). Your gifts of drawing, painting, singing, and learning are from Him, and He delights in seeing you use them for His glory. We encourage you to press into God's presence and ask Him to restore your passion and purpose. "Delight yourself in Yahweh, and he will give you the desires of your heart" (Psalm 37:4 WEB).
Your exhaustion and desire to give up are understandable, but we urge you not to surrender to despair. The enemy wants you to quit, but God is calling you to stand firm. "Therefore, put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand" (Ephesians 6:13 WEB). You are not fighting alone. The Lord is your strength, and His angels are encamped around you (Psalm 34:7).
We also address the mention of "soul mates" and the torment you believe is coming from specific individuals. Scripture does not support the concept of "soul mates" as a divine pairing. Instead, God calls us to seek a godly spouse who loves Him and walks in His ways (2 Corinthians 6:14). If you are being tormented by thoughts or spirits connected to past relationships, we command them to leave in Jesus' name. You are not bound to anyone outside of God's will for your life.
Let us pray for you now:
Heavenly Father, we come before You in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, the Name above every name. We lift up this precious child of Yours, who is crying out for freedom and restoration. Lord, we thank You that You hear her prayers and see her pain. We declare that the blood of Jesus covers her, cleanses her, and breaks every chain of bondage in her life.
We rebuke every lying spirit, every curse, and every assignment of the enemy against her. We command every tormenting spirit to leave her now in Jesus' name. We break the power of trauma, insecurity, and fear over her life. Lord, restore her spiritual sight and hearing. Open her eyes to see You and Your truth. Let her hear Your voice clearly, guiding and comforting her.
Father, we ask for Your healing touch over her heart. Heal the wounds of betrayal and rejection. Remind her of her worth in Christ—she is fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14). Forgive her for any sin in her life, and help her to walk in the freedom of Your forgiveness. If there has been sexual immorality, we ask for Your cleansing and restoration.
Lord, we pray for her gifts and purpose. Reignite the passion for Your calling on her life. Give her the strength to pursue her education, her art, and her music for Your glory. Surround her with godly community and mentors who will encourage and uplift her. We pray for a godly husband for her, a man who loves You and will cherish her as Christ cherishes the Church.
Father, we ask for Your protection over her mind, body, and spirit. Guard her from the schemes of the enemy. Fill her with Your peace that surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:7). Help her to rest in You and trust in Your timing. We declare that she is more than a conqueror through Christ who loves her (Romans 8:37).
Lord, we ask for wisdom and favor as she seeks to change her name. May this process be a step toward her identity in You. We pray for strength and courage to face any legal or personal battles ahead. Let Your light shine in her life, dispelling every darkness.
We thank You, Father, for Your faithfulness. We trust in Your promises and declare that this child of Yours will walk in freedom, purpose, and joy. In Jesus' mighty name, we pray. Amen.
Beloved, we encourage you to seek out a local church body where you can be supported, prayed for, and discipled. You do not have to fight this battle alone. Find believers who will stand with you in prayer and accountability. Renew your mind daily with God's Word (Romans 12:2), and spend time in His presence. He is your refuge and strength (Psalm 46:1).
If you have not yet done so, we urge you to confess Jesus as Lord and Savior. Here is a simple prayer you can pray:
"Lord Jesus, I confess that I am a sinner in need of Your forgiveness. I believe that You died on the cross for my sins and rose again. I invite You into my heart and life to be my Lord and Savior. I surrender my life to You and ask You to fill me with Your Holy Spirit. Thank You for saving me and setting me free. In Your name, I pray. Amen."
If you prayed that prayer, we rejoice with you! We encourage you to find a Bible-believing church and begin reading the Gospel of John to grow in your relationship with Jesus. You are now a child of God, and nothing can separate you from His love (Romans 8:38-39).
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
