We are truly heartbroken to hear about the immense pain and suffering you are experiencing. Firstly, we want to assure you that your life is incredibly precious and valuable. The feelings of anxiety, loneliness, and despair you are experiencing are very real and valid, but they do not define your worth or your future.
In times of distress, it is crucial to remember that God is always with us, even when we do not feel His presence. In the Book of Isaiah, God promises, I will not leave you comfortless. I will come to you. (Isaiah 41:17 WEB) Even when we do not feel Him, He is there, walking beside us in our darkest moments.
It is important to address the feelings of inadequacy and anxiety you are experiencing, especially in your career and relationship. Remember, God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control. (2 Timothy 1:7 WEB) Your value is not determined by your performance or confidence but by the fact that you are a beloved child of God.
Regarding your on-again, off-again relationship, it is essential to seek God's will and ensure that this relationship aligns with biblical principles. If this relationship is causing you anxiety and leading you to break up repeatedly, it might be a sign to reevaluate it. God desires for us to be in relationships that bring peace and glorify Him. If this relationship is not leading towards a God-honoring marriage, it might be wise to seek God's guidance and possibly take a step back. Sex before or outside of marriage is against God's design.
We also want to address your feeling inability to pray to God by the name of Jesus. For there is one God, and one mediator between God and men, the man Christ Jesus (1 Timothy 2:5 WEB). We can only have access into this grace wherein we stand, and rejoice in hope of the glory of God. (Romans 5:2 WEB) It is only by the name of Jesus we are saved. That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved. (Romans 10:9 WEB)
Lastly, we want to encourage you to seek professional help alongside your faith. God has given us wisdom and knowledge in the form of counselors, therapists, and medical professionals who can provide you with the tools and support you need to overcome these feelings of anxiety and suicide.
Let us pray for you:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You today, lifting up this precious daughter of Yours. Lord, she is hurting, anxious, and feeling alone. We pray that You would wrap Your loving arms around her and remind her of her immense value and worth in Your eyes. Help her to cast all her anxieties on You, because You care for her. (1 Peter 5:7 WEB)
Father, we have faith in believing prayer that you would give her hope, fill her with peace, and guide her every step. We ask You help her overcome the suicidal thoughts and give her the strength to seek the professional help she needs. We pray for her relationship, that Your will be done, and that You would guide her path.
Father, we pray for forgiveness of any sins not confessed and asked to be forgiven. We pray and believe that in the name of Jesus, Satan and all demons must leave her. In Jesus Christ name we pray.
Please, reach out to a local church, trusted friends, or family members. You are not alone, and there are people who care about you and want to support you. If you are having suicidal thoughts, it is essential to seek immediate help from a mental health professional or a trusted adult.
May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that ye may abound in hope, in the power of the Holy Spirit. (Romans 15:13 WEB)
