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psykid
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Today I found out that I was unsuccessful in obtaining my dream job. A dream job that I've been wanting for ### years now. My colleague who also happens to be a good friend of mine is hired over me. A number of people were surprised that I wasn't hired. I wasn't surprised or anything, since I thought it really was a 50/50 thing. The only thing I feel right now is extreme anger and disappointment towards myself. I've returned to cutting myself and having strong suicidal thoughts. I know reacting so much because of a job sounds silly, but working with the people in this company and doing what it does... I cannot imagine not being a part of it. Artistic ability is a criteria for this job, so now I also have serious doubts in my skills. Please pray that one day I will be a part of this company, even if I didn't make this time, and that meanwhile, I will find another meaningful job asap. Thanks for even reading this far.
