Anonymous
Beloved of All
I found out my husband has been unfaithful 12 times in 25 years. I have been educated of a real disorder that is called sex addiction and intimacy disorder. I have had trouble believing it could be that, but the more I read, I see all the characteristics to a tee. He was abused severely emotionally as a child. He carries shame. The times he "acted out" were very non-intimate and always caused him extreme pain and shame. He said he always loved me deeply and fully and it was never due to his unfulfillment, so he thought he was crazy and grotesque. I am in deep shock and pain but I feel the light of God telling me to have faith. Not blind faith, but I feel he is prepared to face it. He has gone to Sex Addict Anonymous 2 x a week for some months since he told me, and we read the descriptions, and it fit all he had shared previously and felt. He coped as an intimacy anorexic for our whole marriage in dark pain he denied so much he would almost truly forget. I don't want to be a fool, but I hope I can grow and heal my broken heart. He has been begging me to forgive if he faces it. I trust God is guiding me and I CAN TRUST GOD IF I STAY. He will do polygraphs if I ask him to! He says the pain of it and shock that he would do this has to end or he will die of a heart attack. He was never happy about his compulsive choices. I would love love prayer for him (###) and myself and 3 kids. Thank you!
