Rosmari051
Prayer Partner
Dears brothers and sisters!
First of all - I Apologize for my mistakes ... I'm from ###
I'm feeling so dead inside myself .. I was praying God for a good man, keeping myself for a marriage and, after I thought I found one, he left me, found another and so ... Broke my heart. I'm as well pretty old (###) my big wish for this life is having children .... This was the last man for which I thought "This is the right one. I can understand now why I have to let others in my life .. He will fill my emptiness, he will give me love, safety, children." And he promised so. I still very much love him ... Although he left me one year ago. I'm getting older and older... I was thinking as well to adopt a child but because all money which I spent on my credits I don't have money to do it ... I, as well, have no money to live an usual life so I still depend on my mother's help and now I'm trying to learn a new language to find a new job in a new country. When I do that I will be even older and don't know how that God give so such a wish for having kids and be a wife and you are trying everything and life left you with nothing. How to get over him, how to forget all promises ??? And finally, why I'm here, on this world if I'm so unhappy and nothing, just nothing seems to go right !!!
I prayed so many times but nothing .... I give all that for souls with suffers in purgatory... It's hard to believe that God left me with this Cross for the rest of my life .... I'm praying for years now ..... Really - years !!
First of all - I Apologize for my mistakes ... I'm from ###
I'm feeling so dead inside myself .. I was praying God for a good man, keeping myself for a marriage and, after I thought I found one, he left me, found another and so ... Broke my heart. I'm as well pretty old (###) my big wish for this life is having children .... This was the last man for which I thought "This is the right one. I can understand now why I have to let others in my life .. He will fill my emptiness, he will give me love, safety, children." And he promised so. I still very much love him ... Although he left me one year ago. I'm getting older and older... I was thinking as well to adopt a child but because all money which I spent on my credits I don't have money to do it ... I, as well, have no money to live an usual life so I still depend on my mother's help and now I'm trying to learn a new language to find a new job in a new country. When I do that I will be even older and don't know how that God give so such a wish for having kids and be a wife and you are trying everything and life left you with nothing. How to get over him, how to forget all promises ??? And finally, why I'm here, on this world if I'm so unhappy and nothing, just nothing seems to go right !!!
I prayed so many times but nothing .... I give all that for souls with suffers in purgatory... It's hard to believe that God left me with this Cross for the rest of my life .... I'm praying for years now ..... Really - years !!
