looken4thelite
Humble Prayer Partner
Please pray for the Lord to impart faith in both me and my son. I must not have very much at all because I am in complete and utter torment and pain 95% of my waking hours due to the tragedies that we endured, the last and worst being 9 months ago. I can not find peace or comfort, not even just an ounce! And although I pray all day and night, I fall asleep praying "I seek you Lord with my heart and mind." My son and I pray and read the Bible every night and attend church 2 times a week since 5 months now of being rededicated. But our faith must be so very weak that we...mostly me are in emotional torment non stop. I have had so many prayer posts and some at church pray with me, but nothing gets easier or better. And more recently as if all of the physical and emotional pain were not enough for one soul to bear... I have been having attacks at night 4 times in the last 3 months, 1st time, I just felt pinned down to the bed, I called on (JESUS) and it left, then again the same thing, but when I fell back to sleep I felt something lifting my feet up, and it was happening over and over, also after having my feet being lifted, I also felt my shoulders literally sliding downward. So the first few times I felt my feet being elevated about 3 times, then got more intense as I felt my shoulders sliding down but I also felt that I was asleep and couldn't remember or think to call on Jesus in my sleep, so somehow I realized that I needed to call my son to wake me up, so that I could call on Jesus, it seemed as though I struggled several times calling my son's name until finally he heard me and woke me up and then we prayed together. But this has happened three times in the last couple weeks. This also happened 2 times in one night and is so scary at the time, even though it goes when I call out Jesus.
This night began in August the destruction and loss of my daughter, followed by my ever-growing worse GI problems, and income loss, more pain than any soul should ever bear all at once, but now this spiritual attacks??? I know God is my Savior, and will die for Him, but...WHERE IS HE NOW, and WHERE HAS HE BEEN FOR 9 MONTHS??? I really feel he is not hearing our prayers. Plz anyone of faith, intercede for our faith to grow, strengthen, restore!
The last time I asked for prayer from our Bible study group 2 weeks ago, I told them all everything...just poured my heart out creating a pond of tears on the table top. They all prayed for us, but the next Sunday at church everyone treated me awful, as if I had done something horrible, or as if I were ostracized. Why will not our Lord relief any of this unbearable pain? I just can't see a ray of light, even my son, 29-year-old son who has also rededicated is so depressed especially after asking for prayer and the Bible study leader told us that he would call the Pastor and that they would contact us and be there for us, as we shouldn't have to go through this alone, and no one has ever called us, not even once. We have no family, and literally NO ONE cares! He is a very sweet honest and very loyal son, he left college to come home and take care of me, now he works, and has to finish his last year online, his Father has shunned him completely for leaving college and coming to take care of me. He has never done drugs, or alcohol, or smokes, or anything terrible in his life, and yet he feels that God does not hear his prayers either. Thank you so much, and may our Lord Bless all who pray for us, it means so much to us right now.
This night began in August the destruction and loss of my daughter, followed by my ever-growing worse GI problems, and income loss, more pain than any soul should ever bear all at once, but now this spiritual attacks??? I know God is my Savior, and will die for Him, but...WHERE IS HE NOW, and WHERE HAS HE BEEN FOR 9 MONTHS??? I really feel he is not hearing our prayers. Plz anyone of faith, intercede for our faith to grow, strengthen, restore!
The last time I asked for prayer from our Bible study group 2 weeks ago, I told them all everything...just poured my heart out creating a pond of tears on the table top. They all prayed for us, but the next Sunday at church everyone treated me awful, as if I had done something horrible, or as if I were ostracized. Why will not our Lord relief any of this unbearable pain? I just can't see a ray of light, even my son, 29-year-old son who has also rededicated is so depressed especially after asking for prayer and the Bible study leader told us that he would call the Pastor and that they would contact us and be there for us, as we shouldn't have to go through this alone, and no one has ever called us, not even once. We have no family, and literally NO ONE cares! He is a very sweet honest and very loyal son, he left college to come home and take care of me, now he works, and has to finish his last year online, his Father has shunned him completely for leaving college and coming to take care of me. He has never done drugs, or alcohol, or smokes, or anything terrible in his life, and yet he feels that God does not hear his prayers either. Thank you so much, and may our Lord Bless all who pray for us, it means so much to us right now.
