Jesusismysaviour
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Lord,
Lead me to the path you have set forth for me. I am currently looking for a new home as well as a new job. I have a few jobs in mind that would be good for me to support my ###. I'm stressed. I'm worried. I moved back with my parents temporarily to get myself together. My ### Father has come back into my life and promised to do right, said he'll never be out of her life again, and says he wants to marry me as soon as I set a date. One minute I'm all up for it, the next I'm having doubts. I have forgiven him, I deserved the apology because he had me and another woman pregnant at the same time, and we knew nothing about each other until my child was almost due. He left me to do everything alone. He told the other lady he needed a DNA test and she constantly harassed me about it for him. I told her to relay the message that he could definitely get one, since he was being a coward to tell me he felt that way. I knew I didn't need a DNA test and he knew it too, but he was so caught up into lying to protect her feelings that he would do anything to me to make her feel better, all along he was doing this to his child. My daughter spoke of him here and there, yearning to know him but by the time she was 5 it's like she accepted he wasn't present in her life and continued to enjoy life, just like a child should. Here he comes now when she's almost 6 years old, stressing marriage to me and how he's a changed man. I fear being married to a man who doesn't truly love me, only when it's convenient and I do believe as a Christian we can overcome many things, but he's not even Christian. He said he wants to start going to church and everything with me and I see a small difference in him, however in the back of my head, I don't trust it fully. I feel because the other woman has moved on he's decided to manipulate and use me again. I could be wrong, but he's the reason all of the feelings I have towards him are even there. Help me, Lord.
Lead me to the path you have set forth for me. I am currently looking for a new home as well as a new job. I have a few jobs in mind that would be good for me to support my ###. I'm stressed. I'm worried. I moved back with my parents temporarily to get myself together. My ### Father has come back into my life and promised to do right, said he'll never be out of her life again, and says he wants to marry me as soon as I set a date. One minute I'm all up for it, the next I'm having doubts. I have forgiven him, I deserved the apology because he had me and another woman pregnant at the same time, and we knew nothing about each other until my child was almost due. He left me to do everything alone. He told the other lady he needed a DNA test and she constantly harassed me about it for him. I told her to relay the message that he could definitely get one, since he was being a coward to tell me he felt that way. I knew I didn't need a DNA test and he knew it too, but he was so caught up into lying to protect her feelings that he would do anything to me to make her feel better, all along he was doing this to his child. My daughter spoke of him here and there, yearning to know him but by the time she was 5 it's like she accepted he wasn't present in her life and continued to enjoy life, just like a child should. Here he comes now when she's almost 6 years old, stressing marriage to me and how he's a changed man. I fear being married to a man who doesn't truly love me, only when it's convenient and I do believe as a Christian we can overcome many things, but he's not even Christian. He said he wants to start going to church and everything with me and I see a small difference in him, however in the back of my head, I don't trust it fully. I feel because the other woman has moved on he's decided to manipulate and use me again. I could be wrong, but he's the reason all of the feelings I have towards him are even there. Help me, Lord.
