Dion
Beloved
I ask you to please pray for me. I really don't know why, but I guess because I'm still in pain and heartbroken over the affair my husband had. It has ended, and I have forgiven him, but it's hard to forget. I ask God to restore our marriage, and He is doing just that. My husband is trying, and things are going pretty good, but I'm always wanting to throw it up in his face, and sometimes I do. And when I wake up in the morning, that's the first thing I think about, and when I go to work, that's all I think about—how he could have done this to us and me. I picture him and the other woman together, and it just makes me sick, really sick, like I need to throw up. When I'm in my car, I have a real hard time because they spent a lot of time in the car. I asked my husband if we could sell the car; he said yes, but we would need to put it up for sale first. But we have other problems, not just the car. We also may lose our home? I just don't want to feel this way every day. I tell my husband I'm having a hard day, and he says, "Why?" Then he says it's over, and let's move on. I don't really think he knows how much this has hurt me. I just wish he was more understanding of my feelings and that I could start trusting him. I think I can't trust him because I keep on bringing crazy things up in my head. I just want to stop sounding like a crazy woman in my head, and my husband says I'm starting to push him away. ...... Please just pray I don't have these bad thoughts anymore and that ### and ### can put this behind us and work on our marriage. Sorry this is so long. I just need all your prayers so I can get over this.....thank you all ....... in Jesus' name, amen.
